Category Archives: broken dreams

“I do it for all the little girls”

So we didn’t shatter that highest glass ceiling yet. Like many people, since last week I’ve been trying to stay positive and think of things I/we can do to promote a better, supportive society. A recent article in the New … Continue reading

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Why I stopped faking it

When I was in grad school I felt like I wasn’t good enough and at the same time that I deserved to have it all – perfect grades, grants, awards, fantastic publications, a great social life and a happy family. My … Continue reading

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Resolution Fail!

We’re not even at the end of January and I’ve already failed at one of my goals for the year. Okay, not failed, but postponed. I’ve been working on applying for a career transition award through NIH. This means proposing … Continue reading

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I’ve made a huge mistake

This is it. I’m saying it out loud (well, writing it anonymously) for the first time… I’ve made a huge mistake. I am not on the right career path. And I don’t know how to move forward from here. With … Continue reading

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Decision point

I was 25 – three years out of art school, living in Brooklyn, doing odd jobs – when I found something that looked promising on craigslist. An art space down the street from my Bushwick apartment was looking for interns. … Continue reading

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Wouldda Shouldda Couldda

If you knew then what you know now, would you have done the same thing? My graduate adviser asked me this question when I was in third or fourth year of graduate school.  He asked if I still had come … Continue reading

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Plan B.

I applied for my dream job. And did not get it. Fuck. What I want. What I want to do is dig a deep hole, climb into it and close the lid. A hole deep enough that would represent the … Continue reading

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